This is Jeremiah, Kortny's husband. Nice to meet you. This is the first time I've created an entry on this blog. Kortny has done a terrific job of keeping all of you updated on what's been going on with our adoption. I've decided to write my first entry while 30,000 feet in the air on my way to the Echo Conference in Dallas.
I'm pumped about this adoption, and what God has in store for our family. At the same time, I'm a typical guy in that right now when we're in the midst of paper work, financial support raising, act… those are the things I'm mainly focused on. As you can imagine they're not the most fun things to do, but we also knew what we were getting into when we signed up for this.
When we first decided that this is what God called us to do, I wasn't really all that worried about how it would all come together. I felt that if God is calling us to do something, that he'll provided all the emotional, mental, and financial support we'd need. I know that's all true, but in the past few days I've began to doubt some of it. Seeing our savings account dwindle and waiting for this form to get approved and that form to come in the mail, it's created a considerable amount of worry in me. This morning, I woke up at 3:30 to catch an early flight out of O'Hare, and I drank a full cup of coffee. Both of these things can make my stomach a little more sick than normal, but I was also extra worried about adoption "things" more than normal. Before my plane left the ground, I sent a quick text to a friend asking for prayers that God may calm my fears and that I'd again trust Him in this process.
Once we got in the air and the pilot approved usage of electronic devices (I waited to use it because I work for a church and try to be a good person, okay?). So with a sick stomach and more worried than I've been in years, I fired up the laptop to work on my annual staff self-evaluation (I'll post that when I'm done. No I won't.). I then opened up iTunes and picked Page CXVI to listen to. I played the first song that showed up, and here are are the lyrics I heard…
Be still my soul, the Lord is on your side
Bear patiently the Cross of grateful pain
Lean to your God to order and provide
In every change, He will remain
It's pretty amazing when God directly speaks and comforts you while 10,000 ft in the air through a song written 200 years ago
3 minutes later, I had to go through the awkward moment of having grown man tears in my eyes while telling the flight attendant I'll take sprite and pretzels.